Dear world,
I have invented a new word. That new word is........................... INTELLECTACY... that is; the perfect fusion of intimacy and intellectual stimulation... In other words, a quasi-sexual/semi-erotic relationship based purely on stimulation of the mind... THE BRAIN AS A SEX ORGAN/EROGENOUS ZONE....
Not bad for someone who's been expelled this week from the fifth school in succession. Well FUCK EDUCATION: all education is run by BRAINWASHING PSYCHOS... most of them are fucking wannabe NAZI-DICTATORS; so let them have their fun but NOT WITH ME.
You see; mum has never had a close intellectual bond with any of her boyfriends... probably the closest bond she's got is with her brother; so obviously there's a lack of sexual chemistry there... but; just imagine if you could make someone cum just through conversation!!!! I mean; no physical contact whatsoever; and not necessarily talking about something erotic/sexual... although obviously people get excited about all kinds of things... BUT what's the difference between eroticism and the sexual??????? I suppose eroticism is more subtle; less overtly titillation???? Fuck knows; anyway... imagine if you had a relationship like that?? Surely that's like the IDEAL FUCKING DREEEEEEAAAAAM RELATIONSHIP???? AM I WRONG???
It's weird how people separate and cordon off their different friendships... I mean, Orion, for example, is purely a SEXUAL being to me... she could never be, in MY eyes, someone with whom I had a conversation; in fact, the idea of having a conversation with her kind of makes me feel queasy if I'm honest... I mean, all I would see is her mouth moving; except it wouldn't be her mouth, would it?? It would be her fucking vagina moving and talking to me... and I wouldn't be able to understand what she was saying to me.. I mean; it's happened before... When she starts talking all I see is fucking fanny twitching up and down!!!!! Therefore, intellectacy would be impossible with Orion...
MAYBEIT'S TOO MUCH TO ASK... MAYBE INTELLECTACY IS A HUMAN IMPOSSIBILITY... MAYBE EVERYONE COMPARTMENTALISES THEIR LIFE SO MUCH, THAT SOMEONE YOU FUCK JUST COULDN'T EVER HAVE ENOUGH OF YOUR RESPECT FOR YOU TO GENUINELY ENGAGE ON A PURE INTELLECTUAL LEVEL?????
I mean; when you try and do that it turns into a competition... SEX TURNS EVERYTHING INTO A COMPETITION... IT PITS PEOPLE AGAINST ONE ANOTHER.........PEOPLE HATE HATE HATE BEING SEEN SEEN SEEN IN THEIR CLOSEST ANIMAL STATE-WHICH IS THE STATE OF ORGASM.... FOR EXAMPLE; most people, after a while in a relationship don't mind letting their partner see them sitting on the toilet taking a shit... that is if they expect the partner to be hanging around for a while: if they anticipate longevity in the relationship..they don't seem to mind or care' they think it INCREASES their intimacy...
ALL IT DOES IS MAKE YOU THE WEAKER PARTY IN THE RELATIONSHIP...LOVE IS A GAME OF CAT AND MOUSE... AND IN THE ENDGAME THERE COMES ALONG A BIG BLACK DOG WHO SNAFFLES UP BOTH MOUSE AND CAT; WHAT A FUCKING FEAST...
anyone who does that in a relationship AUTOMATICALLY forfeits their right to have RESPECT from the other... Mostly, it would seem that women are always eager and panting to do this; thinking that this act will bond them together in shared grotesqueness... chicks; BY ACKNOWLEDGING THAT YOU ARE A BEAST; AN ANIMAL FIRST AND FOREMOST... HOW THE FUCK DO YOU EXPECT MEN TO TAKE YOU SERIOUSLY????? You want to prove that you're not prissy or think that he will realise the supposed implications/significance of the gesture...that you love him; NO HE WON'T HE'LL THINK YOU'RE FUCKING STUPID... That must surely be one of those moments; those pivots which make or break relationships...
Of course, men can make the same mistake as well... don't get me wrong! ... But I have to say that there are sparkling similarities between the partner; whether male or female, who decides to take this step... and they repeat the mistake in later relationships as well; which is interesting.
The partner who takes a SHIT is usually the inferior in the relationship; they WANT to be the superior, and assume that by openly taking a shit in front of the other, they will somehow gain the upper hand... WRONG!
Secondly, intuitively they realise that they will never be the superior; and therefore use the poo-trick as an act of overt sabotage. They are somehow trying to say several things at once with that act: 1) I love you so much that I feel able to do this in front of you.
2) I hate you for being the superior one; this is what I think of you and your superiority
3) I love being your inferior; look how I will debase myself in your presence to prove how inferior I really am
4) I hate being inferior; look what you make me do; look how low you make me sink in order to please you
5) I love you for being the superior one; look what you make me do; how low you make me sink in order to please you
6) Please love me for being animal/love yourself for being animal
7) Please hate me for being animal/hate yourself for being animal
8) This is the best relationship I've had; my shit confirms this, but I feel/believe that I don't deserve it... dump me, please.
People might feel ALL or any combination of those statements (un-/sub-consciously, of course). But people will claim that they do it in order to bring them and their partner closer together, when really it is a code for panic and terror at having to conduct a healthy adult relationship.
People who understand this don't shit openly. PRESERVE YOUR DIGNITY-DON'T DO IT!!
Of course; it depends on the viewer's own set of perceptions and/or hang ups as to how the two people negotiate their way through the situation/detonate it... But to me, someone taking a shit is someone openly lighting the touch-paper on a bomb. And the clock starts ticking.
Yours,
Harry